Love The Sinner

by Didi Fever

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released December 16, 2018

All songs written and performed by Didi Fever

Production - Rob Chaseman and Didi Fever
Recording & Mixing - Rob Chaseman
Drums - George Mickel
Bass - Matt Brandau
Guitar - Jason Green
Organ - Michael "Poz" Pozzapon
Piano - Didi Fever
Violin - Noah Wolf
Cello - Tiago Neto
Stylophone - Rob Chaseman
Additional Vocals - The Brooklyn Ladies' Choir
Additional Editing - Michael Bihovsky
Mastering - Jordan Richardson

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Track Name: Adam
my mother should have named me Adam
my sins are the sins of every man
my mother should have named me Adam
taking what i want just ‘cause i can

my mother should have named me Leah
tears always staining my eyes red
my mother should have named me Leah
so i could have prepared for what lay ahead

my mother should have named me Moses
i see the signs but i can’t understand
my mother should have named me Moses
‘cause i’ll never make it to that promised land

my mother should have named me Leah
destined to come in second best
my mother should have named me Leah
always bargaining my way into your bed

my mother should have named me Adam
shame will always kill my fear of god
my mother should have named me Adam
so i could have prepared for the fall
Track Name: Happy Deathday
how hard is it for you to understand
i only loved you 'cause i hated my dad?
and my daddy said he'd shoot you twice in the head
but i think i'm gonna beat him to the task

you've been running from the law for so long
but of course you're the victim and you've done no wrong
ironic symbolism is only the beginning
this is your lullaby song

happy, happy deathday
your suffering is through
close your eyes, make a wish
happy deathday to you

how hard is it for you to confess
that i'm a child and you're a psycho mess?
you never had a daughter, so you found one and you caught her
but lolita is a lioness

so obsessed with your own demise
well revenge is best served with a colt 45
my daddy is paying, so i'm done waiting
good-bye my love, good-bye

happy, happy deathday
your suffering is through
close your eyes, make a wish
happy deathday to you

you had your dream come true
well i'm entitled to dreams, too (didn't you?)
and you can dream of me forever (didn't you?)
'cause you're not waking up anytime soon

happy, happy deathday
your suffering is through
close your eyes, make a wish
happy deathday to you
oh, happy deathday to you
Track Name: Horses
i’ve been lying awake for hours
tasting sugar cubes on my pillow
when i was young, i was sure of one thing
tales of horses covered my bookshelf

there is nothing on earth like riding
early autumn, blue flame mountain
i lift my face to the sky and shake out my mane
say good-bye to the ground underneath me

you are wild and free
wild and free
wild and free

i have been with some expert wranglers
fear and cruelty give gifts of bad habits
she is nobody’s steed, no prize-winning breed
my hand felt the warmth of her heartbeat

i’ve been lying to myself for years now
pills and traffic, banks and tv
that is no life for me, i was born without shoes
it’s time to release me

you are wild and free
wild and free
wild and free
Track Name: Parallel Lines
i invited each person i knew
i hung up lightning bolt balloons
i spent a hundred bucks on booze
just so you would know i was cool

at nine you walked into the door
took off your shoes and said "hello"
then spent the whole night on your phone
oh, who could you be talking to?

and there's a lot of things that could be said here
but i think they can wait 'til we are dead, dear
'cause we are parallel lines

we sang duets at the local bar
pretended we were broadway stars
i always sang the lover's part
what else am i supposed to do?

if this were 1894
i'd ask for you to sit and pose
i'd paint the afternoon in rose
and still i'd never capture you

and there's a lot of things that could be said here
but i think they can wait 'til we are dead, dear
'cause we are parallel lines
Track Name: Lost
follow me, my lost child
you have seen too many hearts broken
in these woods, dark and deep
what you lost, what you seek to open

the belly of the beast
the curse to be released

soft among the carrion
home is just another word unspoken
now they rise, now we fall
through your eyes, i see it all awoken

the belly of the beast
the hunger is unleashed
Track Name: Mister Librarian
i’m looking for a summer romance, a real page-turner
under any other circumstance, i’d be a tamer customer

but mister librarian, with your glasses and your cardigan
i’m thinking you should check me out when i return

do you have any mysteries that i can work through?
is the date you’re stamping on that sleeve
the next time i can see you?

‘cause mister librarian, i feel a happy ending coming on
and I’m thinking you should check me out when i return

you hide behind those shelves all day
you need a little paperback to come your way
so skip ahead to page 102
where the hero’s main interest says “i love you”

i’m looking for a summer romance, in fact i’m overdue
and i’m thinking you should take a chance
and crack the spine of something new

so mister librarian, put my number in your system
‘cause I might just come and check you out when i return
Track Name: Stay In New York
i know you like the music of the birds and the bees
i know you wanna weep with the willow trees
i know you think the subway’s filled with deadly disease
i know you wanna run away but please, please, please

stay in new york with me
when i’m with you i never wanna go to sleep
the east side, west side, uptown or down
i don’t care as long you’re around
stay in new york with me
and if you grow tired of the pageantry
the skyscrapers, traffic, and the car alarms
your escape can be in my arms

i know you have dreams of a country farm home
i know when you get angry you want to be alone
i know you wanna tangle with the thistles and thorns
but the silent nights won’t keep away the cold, so

stay in new york with me
when i’m with you, i never wanna go to sleep
what use have we for amber waves of grain
when your golden smile can clear away the rain? oh
stay in new york with me
i’ll keep you safe and warm in a yellow taxi
and if you feel nothing for parades and parks
your escape can be in my arms

i wanna dance with you underneath the sky
on a dirty warehouse where the angels cry
i wanna drown with you in a sea of light
and a million heartbeats in the vertigo night

stay in new york with me
when i’m with you, i never wanna go to sleep
the east side, west side, uptown or down
i don’t care as long as you’re around
stay in new york with me
i’ll keep you safe and warm in a yellow taxi
and if this little island’s too small for your heart
your escape can be in my arms
Track Name: Golden Age
blackened pastures swept by your hand into patterns i can’t understand
this master could only hold you so long
and i’m past my prime, but numbers mean nothing when we have both run out of time
trace the lines, as ten constellations come crashing down into our minds

oh, how we dreamt of the greatness of newton and galileo
oh, how all inspiration evaporates after you go

eyes and fingers pointing and laughing, the universe cracking
those facts and figures bringing you nearer to me
my old friend, in the end, all those gods in their galleries watching our games of pretend
should have aimed their lightning bolts at me the moment that i shook your hand

oh, how we dreamt of the greatness of newton and galileo
oh, how this devastation will follow wherever you go

we will meet again, oh my oldest friend
we’ll meet again, oh my only friend

oh, how we dreamt of the greatness and damn the world if it should burn
oh, how all hesitation disintegrates when you return
Track Name: Peter Pan
always had an escape plan, even when i was young
ventured into the wardrobe leaving trails of bread crumbs
now the memories are hazy through the looking glass
but i drive myself crazy wondering how to get back

'cause i never learned the things that i know i should have
keep making the same mistakes every chance i get

i keep growing older, but i can't seem to grow up
heaven knows i've tried
we keep growing older, we can't seem to stop
feeling like a child

figurines of my heroes somehow followed me
through the misty mountains of dates and degrees
now no ruby red slippers can guide me home
take me over the rainbow where i've always belonged

'cause i never could decide just what i wanted
and i never figured out just who i am

i keep growing older, but i can't seem to grow up
heaven knows i've tried
we keep growing older, we can't seem to stop
feeling like a child

they call me peter, peter pan
living in never, neverland

trapped in the page
trapped in this age

they call us peter, peter pan
living in never, neverland

trapped in the page
trapped in this age

i keep growing older, but i can't seem to grow up
heaven knows i've tried
we keep growing older, we can't seem to stop
feeling like a child
Track Name: Into The Sun
please tell me who and when and why
where did you learn how to survive?
you’ve got an anchor for a heart
you see the stars in every chart
i only see the dark

but to behold your presence when the day is done
is like staring directly into the sun
yes, to behold your presence when the dreams are gone
is like staring directly into the sun
directly into the sun

please tell me how you tamed the fates
each page you touch illuminates
you’ve got a compass for a soul
magnetic fields will lead me home
to peace i’ve never known

‘cause to behold your presence when the night is young
is like staring directly into the sun
yes, to behold your presence when the chains have won
is like staring directly into the sun
directly into the sun

i’m going blind, but i don’t mind
i hear your thoughts across the crowded room every time
i’m going blind, but i don’t mind
because your heartbeat in the dark will be my guide
open up my eyes

‘cause to behold your presence when the years grow long
is like staring directly into the sun
and all my life i’ve waited for the day to dawn
so i’ll keep staring directly into the sun
directly into the sun

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